Same Old Tune

2008-06-30T05:25:00.000-07:00

Coalesce

2008-06-08T09:38:00.000-07:00

This is Mural i did on my room Wall.. its basically a interpretation of the original artwork done my U.S.A. artist Derek Hess for the Hardcore band Coalesce..but i did it my way... was kinda fun only took me 30 mins to finish it..

2008-06-03T13:58:00.000-07:00

2008-05-15T10:55:00.000-07:00

Terrorism is the New Black

2008-05-15T10:22:00.000-07:00

seems like fashionable... people are sick..
fucked up world..

i sue to be a part of a group that believed in an idelealistic truth. Sadly
i got nothing but disappointment, you guys fucking failed me.

Anyways now i see how i have i moved on so far the further i am from you people the better of i am.

Anwyays was good meeting up With Ms Debbie Cai, the old friends know u the best.

Jerome

You Suck

2008-05-14T02:35:00.000-07:00

Mavis You suck

I am Mr Boring Man

2008-05-13T08:17:00.000-07:00

Last saturday a girl said iw as boring. haha was`nt the first time, thought it would`nt affect me BUt guess it did in the end.

The world is indeed , fucking bais and ignorant.

:)

2008-05-11T09:18:00.000-07:00

Action Reaction went better than i thought. Its great seeing new bands like Creek wither doing so well on their first show, the crowd was definately floored by their sound.

Sky in Euphoria will be continuing for a while more i suppose. Like any band there are conflicts and disagreements. But iguess for the past 6 years its been a really good ride.
Jon, Symon, Daren and Shaun. If there will come a day where we can`t be friends anymore for what ever sadistic reason God plans, thank you boys for tolerating an ass wipe like me. Many times i do not feel competant to lead, i wish i was a better man. I have learned so much about life and how to live it through your jokes, stories, Problems even personal attacks. For this i am grateful to my band boys. You guys are cool.

Friends are hard to come by and they deplete as u grow older, i guess even your charm dies out after a while and u become this boring guy that has just been around the block. Well i guess its been an honour having been in the prescence fo talented people and even fucked up ones.

At least there are people who enjoy your company, i`m trying to change. But iguess i found out teh reason why i`m always alone..cuz i`m fucked up, friends who take sudden shots at me i realise why, i guess their tolerance for an annoying individual like me wears out. and being nice is just pretending for them, i understand if i could i`d take myself out too.

I hope God stops being unfair and grants me a break with my Job situation soon, life is already shitty enough. Pls don`t take away oppotunities to earn money at least.

yep i`m going to bed but i noe i`ll prolly just stay up the whole night distracted by insomia.
Night.

This will be over soon

2008-05-02T11:12:00.000-07:00

I Lavish on short term memory

Slowing down with every step to raise up a banner

As my mind is Caught in a moment

with cacoon like appearance, Something more burns in my veins

Till i Plunge into wide open spaces

i`m Waiting for a greater meaning than Pockets of time wasted on you

New Art Part 2

2008-05-02T11:05:00.000-07:00

After meeting a client thsi what i have come up with.. hope this rawks!

Mandatory

2008-05-01T11:41:00.001-07:00

I am sailing away taking in the rawness of the air that chokes my lungs
The thrust of mighty waves brings my vessel further ahead in a direction
that i have left to chance
gloved with folded arms like a bird perched to rest
While the heat from burnt bridges still warm against my back
A pile salt i`ll be, should i look back.

Another milestone is not too far away, everytime my heart breaks
no grace is enough to give me a peace of mind

No more will i need to care. i`ll just have to set my eyes beyond
a horizon till the sun comes up to kill the rawness of the air

New Art

2008-05-01T01:24:00.000-07:00

A draft design for a house in Tthe east coast. Hope i get this project deal quite a bit of cash.

Despondent

2008-04-27T02:05:00.000-07:00

2 Months before i`m out of a job, company closing down. haha Well so much for having high hopes. Got to look for another Job i suppose. But i guess i don`t feel like i wasted my time, it was good while it lasted. Like almost anything or any situation it Could have been much better, ya i have been overworked, looked down on and even laughed at. But who has`nt been hur? Time for me to move on and hopefully, really i hope something better comes my way. Listening to Taking Back Sunday`s Divine intervention prolly the only song they have written that i really like.

This year has`nt been so bad, despite financially being super broke. I guess its been ok, there are times i feel like its really too hard to go on. No shit Life is a bitch, friendships are never timeless. Much less one`s moment of happiness, gotta take in the good with the bad.

Last whole week i was working on a magazine layout almost every night i was up till 7 am. And in the end i failed everyone the designs were wrongly layout the bleeds were off. Quite sick of screwing up, its ok i guess its one of those things. I`m gonna go watch Iron Man this wednesday alone, i really don`t know who to ask out with me. One day i`ll have a group of friends to hang out with i don`t know when. haha...

DIVINE INTERVENTION - Taking Back Sunday

Despondent, distracted,You're vicious and romantic;These are a few of my

favorite things.All of those flavors andThis is what you choose:Past the blues,

past the blues,And on to something new,Something real, make it timeless,

An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.So if you're calling me out,

Then count me out.Yeah, we're stubborn and melodramatic,A real class act.

You see, I know a few of your favorite things.Five in the morning

and all comes out pouring,Love, out the same way in.Something real, make it

timeless,An act of God and nothing less will be accepted.Now if you're calling me

out,Then count me out.Something real, make it timeless,An act of God and

nothing less will be accepted.I said real, make it timeless,An act of God and

nothing less will be accepted.Now if you're calling me out,Then count me out.

Mm, mm, mm, mm.Mm, mm, mmmm.

Iron Man

2008-04-26T10:22:00.000-07:00

Anyone wanna go watch Iron Man?

2008-04-15T05:35:00.000-07:00

Paint draw smoke and die

2008-04-14T14:41:00.000-07:00

New work

Sculptures???

2008-04-14T14:36:00.000-07:00

Some Sketches for a sculpture installation i`m doing. tommorrow is my proposal... sigh hop eit works out havent slept. been drawing my ass off.

Silent Night

2008-04-08T08:33:00.000-07:00

Tonight i am painting, it eems i am at ease after the longest of times.
Smoking like there is no tommorrow at the same time, while listening to silent night hahaha
Yesterday Sky in euphoria prolly had one of the BEST jam sessions ever! finally we are moving forward musically, i feel honuored jamming with you boys. You guys rock.

Have so much to do man, damn. But i guess it beats thinking too much about useless people and useless shit. After i paint i`m gonan walk home from teh gallery its about 1hr 30mins walk, i enjoy long walks like these.

Maybe one day my life will turn around for the better. Despite the pile of shit i gotten myself into. btw the movie American Gangster is good! of course fails in comparison to the classic scar face.

And to the dear one waiting 8 days now, i hope you get what you want in this life. I guess i was`nt what you were looking for. Ok i better stop here before i get negative AGAIN!

Trying to cheer up, life is tough for us all. I`m just one of those people who are never quite strong and smart enough to move on, how does one forget? how does one just let go?
I realise thise morning and i look at the glorious mess of a room i have. I Keep many many things that i dun need. I guess its like me deep inside, i keep all these things and i cannot reconcile the reasons why i never get rid of them, sentimental? i doubt it.. mental more like it. HA!

Weekend is coming in a way i don`t look forward to it. Spend most of my weekends alone anyways. i`ll prolly come back to teh gallery to work. Life haaaii........ for what are?
I said a prayer today YES! SURPRISE! i asked God if his love is truely unconditional that he can help a scumbag like me out, because i really need a miracle. Never thought i woul dbe saying a prayer while smoking away, gone are the days when i would be studying the bible, praying hard for the people i cared for. I once believed i had a calling to preach Gods word, to defend the sheep and to love those whom have strayed. in the words of Nirvana " Jesus don`t want me for a sunbeam."
So i tonight i`ll rest on my bed, just trying to be happy that the few that are in my oikos are doing ok. No doing alright or ok is really more than specifics, its a wholistic perspective. Balance.

Who will stand on the other end of the scale to bring about balance in my life, the cross is heavy. maybe it might just be the right weight for my sins, am i thinking of atonement? forgiveness? love? i don`t know all i know and all i am really praying for beyond what i feel now, is to die.

2008-04-05T14:24:00.000-07:00

" YA RIGHT! GOD DOES`NT PLAY FAVOURITE?! HA!

Clare! i know you read this..:) i really really appreciate you... your sweet and really patient with me... your a beautiful soul... :) would you kill me? if i told you i feel like i want to drop that $ 20 000 project? i`ll explain in person....But really you are cool... thank you for always being interested in what i do and who i am.... Hard these days to have people who actually not just talk about how they feel about you but people who actually know how to actually to just do a simple "how r u?" ...... since your prolly the only one thats continuing reading my blogspot.. haha
its like i`ll talk to uindirectly here ok? hahaha i really do think your really talented... and in a way i wish i could be as good as you at what you do....... yea thats some honesty for you... i`ll read the book... i promise....k...

Yea tough week, i`m tired, fustrated, hungry most of the time, restless, lonely.. damn fucking lonely man... shit man i really give up.. no one ever calls... sometimes i wanna throw my phone away. Other than for work purposes... hahah wow like bloody robot i am..... Anyways i gotta get up early for work on a sunday! ya thats my life... so ya i dun go to church so burn me at a stick will ya? fucking self righteous bastards.. ok i get it. i`m going to hell! wow u can celebrate now.. hooray! Apart from this rant, next time someone makes an appointment with me, if i call you and don`t fucking pick up 30 mins before i meet u i`m going home. don`t waste my time...SICK OF BE TAKEN FOR A RIDE.. Anyways i best get to bed....
looking forward to 5pm tommorrow when i can finally come home and sleep.... fucking hell...

FUCK YOUR INDIE ROCK AND FUCK YOUR ART! IN MY BOOK YOUR SHIT!

2008-03-25T09:59:00.000-07:00

Another day, so meaningless. Ever since i walked away from the "call" , i find myself not knowing who i am anymore. No amount of alcohol ciggerettes help, i know many old friends don`t recognise me anymore. Hell i don`t even recognise myself, was`nt i suppose to be something like a servant for God or something. I don`t know anymore, what i believe today is i have failed and its sure is hell obvious i`m not welcomed back.

I` ve tried to say goodbye to these old friends in my own way, too bad most of them just don`t get it or rather don`t give a shit. I would`nt want to think i did`nt mean anything to any of them i would like to think i did. People come and people go, thats the way its always been and will always be for us relational creatures.

At work everyday, my heart opens a new wound with every moment i realise i am not good enough for a certain someone. I really do HATE myself, i think i should say good bye to this one she deserves much better than the piece of trash i am. I really am Trash, now an awful truth hangs loose off my tongue. I keep breaking peoples trust and worst i break their hearts. Sometimes just sometimes before i go to bed i pray i never wake up the next day, each day i feel so fucking misunderstood.

I have forgiven you guys who have talked a bunch of crap about me behind my back. Guess you guys prolly have a better analogy of who i am and maybe i`m really am that awful person. Yea you can say, Vodka is a Jerome Magnet. You can say, that you don`t know what i do with the girls at a certain place. You can say i binge off other peoples purchased drinks. You can say i`m at fault for the way my band is today. You can also fucking blame me for the polar fucking ice caps melting if you have to. Why not accuse me of fucking conspiring with Mr selamat while you guys are at it. I fucking hate you fucking ELITIST BASTARDS! You group up and you take people down one by one with your glare, with your pretencious artistic tunes you tear down the very fabric of the reason why people are lost, why people are just searching. So if you FUCKING ELISTIST BASTARDS have the answer why don`t you share it. Maybe you know what, the very same people you frown on are the very same people you really are yourselves.

FUCK YOUR INDIE ROCK AND FUCK YOUR ART! IN MY BOOK YOUR SHIT!

Jonathan James Hemsley and Symon Fong, you guys i`ll always trust. To a certain "best" friend, you don`t even have the guts to catch me now do you? One day i won`t have to put up with this shit anymore and i know tha day is soon. I will NOT BE MISSED, I`LL BE HATED , I`LL BE FURTHER MISUNDERSTOOD, I`LL BE WRITTEN OFF and my fucking existen would`nt have fucking mattered not for a fucking second. So really FUCK YOU.

I always thought life will get better guess not, today my mumt ellsme resigned her job, i just said "whats new?". And before she can explain how she found anotehr job, i just said, " i don`t care i don`t even want to know its not my problem."

And yes if anyone who is actually reading this junk, yes your right i prolly have daddy issues. that fuck head piece of indian scum, lazy as a drunk mexican that lost his house keys on his way home after a night of drinking. If i `m at his funeral it will be a very very very odd day... thats if don`t go before he does... i think i should go before he does just to fucking break his heart into 2 .

Oh ok maybe your wondering while you read this, " this does`nt sound like Jerome?" well fuck you ok, don`t wait for a fair weather than pretend like your my friend. Truely wish i was dead.
FUCK THIS WORLD, AND FUCK YOU ALETHEIA YOU FUCKING LIAR. goodnight.

Finsh it Up

2008-03-22T12:52:00.000-07:00

Fail your every wish
the setting of your fixation on me
is far from reasonable excuse
i am gulty as i am accused
Of gunning for a point
Stirring my finger tips in
miry clay
The marks are uncanny
if you could see how this colour matches
the shade of your shadow
You find your own reflection an image
of your regret
Jaded you`ll hate yourself
but you will never be able to find me
when you do

2008-03-17T11:07:00.000-07:00

FUCK

Wooden doors with broken knobs

2008-03-15T01:03:00.000-07:00

Shrud you are not living for a life of lies
It could take more competition to climb
there is a tide against your advance
It will wear your limbs out
In my hands i hold a pool of tranquility
A drop of water falls from the window
to my soul
The surface resounds a new song for you
Deflection like how i embrace a new rejection
My meaning flung into an open empty space
i never want to exist another day with out you

YOU

2008-03-09T10:22:00.000-07:00

At the end of today, just before bedtime.
The weeks plagued with much strife paralyses my soul and i admit my tiredness.

I am hung by my ankles, with my fingers scratching the surface of green pasture. Everything is incomplete and my dreams are out of reach.

Tonight will never mean more to me than last night, last night where in form i was closer to her.
Now with each day she drifts away.

She hits me with her tantrums, she snubs me with her arrogance, she uses me for her convieniance, she cares only for her comfort, she is afraid.

I`ll lay now on shards from broken picture frames, may this pain come from God`s pruning.
i`m biting my tongue. I dare not say it all, i`ll miss you.

RESTRICTED AND OUT OF BOUNDS

2007-10-27T00:42:00.000-07:00

Many people ask me why i never ask for help?
well really sometimes when u ask for help your met with more judgement
from so called samaritans of good favour, so up their own ass
with self righteous bullshit.
Why help only to find your so fustrated by how much lack the damsel has
Why help if a persons weaknesses only cause you to anger
Why help when you know you `ll lose a friend forever
Today someone asked me " what have you been up to and how are you?"

so i said " There is a change in my life, a new JOb and a new social circle. "

And thi person goes, " what was the trigger for this change in your social circle?"

SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK!!! goodness..... so fucking STUPID!! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!
New job means new friends la DUMB ASS!

2007-10-20T02:15:00.000-07:00

I should try to forget
Having you is bigger
I should try to regret
Having you is better

When All else fails you
and i
I rest a smile on your forehead
Hurt will watch you grow
With you i will not have known
I love you

How its gonna be?

2007-10-11T09:38:00.000-07:00

Work for a week, i find everything i always wanted to have in arms reach
yet i fumble and i know i`m not like most not that i`m any more special
My mind is always weak and i always hear these voices that tell me i`m gonna fail
I don`t know who i can trust anymore
Show me a friend some time
someone i can really trust
there is more to thise life than i initially percieved
more to this journey it is not over...
i thought to myself if i were to die today would i regret anything
i would prolly but my life has been ok... cosidering how fucked up life is for everyone anyway..
ok i`m no one to speak so generically about everyone
but seriously my faith in God in Jesus is so weak now
i cling onto only a simple prayer i say on my way to work

am i angry? yes i am
am i sad? yes i am
am i gonna give up? i don`t ahve a choicwe but to move on
and i will move on....as heavy as these baggages are i have to
I do`nt wnat anythign to do with people who only speak of themsleves
piss off please leave me alone i`m gonna get used to to going homeafter work and playing guitar
what a nerd i am watching spiderman and playing my guitar shit!
no i noe when i`m durnk isay stupid shit like ho whot i think i am... but really i noe am not
i`m insecure i`m jaded i`m wasted
I`M SO FUCKING SICK!! OF GIRLS FUCKING TELLING ME SHIT AND ISSUES THEY HAVE WITH THEIR BF!!! PLS STOP IT!! ITS ALWAYS THE SAME OL SHIT!!
i seriosuly dun have time for that seriously fuck it... can`t deal with your bf fuck it dun come whinning to me...CB

i am drinking and i am smoking..... oh well like anyone actually read s this! which is prolly good cuz in the end you only have yourself

Nothing sets me apart

2007-10-02T06:44:00.000-07:00

Hollow you surround
I`d venture a little more
but i am afraid
You might pull me in with that gaze
Luring me, my desire pasted with greed
Could my plea be anymore pretencious
Nothing sets me apart
The same as my enemies
The same as the things i hate
i have become them

The common advocation for the correct
Beckons me, Tempts me
And i reply with utmost bitterness
The will be no remorse or a need to explain
my actions
I`ll be drenched in your tears
For is`nt love what you feared

Jerome

PERFORMING

2007-09-25T14:27:00.000-07:00

There comes a time
2 mins to slide a piece metal in my hand
my throat opens up
and i belt
like my life depended on it
an addict to chaos
i can`t slow down
all i feel is all thats infront of me
its all a blur
its all a show
its all for nothing
if i don`t mean every single second of it
So feel this five folded fist
This mouth won`t remain shut
I`ll break this silence once and for all

2007-09-25T14:16:00.000-07:00

2007-09-25T14:05:00.000-07:00

MURAL AT YOUTH CENTRE

2007-09-14T05:20:00.000-07:00

yesterday Charlene and i did an awesome mural painting at the youth centre in orchard road. We kinda smoked our way through the whole process, BUT! WE NAILED IT! the mural look so yummy like creamy icing on a cake, like something right out of an alice in wonderland old school childrens book! check it out! --- >

2007-08-20T10:01:00.000-07:00

UnDone

2007-08-20T09:24:00.000-07:00

i am unsteady

are you real

i dance along an edge

this is a threat to my very existence

hold my head up high

i jump

but i`ll never land

a bed of roses

with blood stained sheets

my love

everything has come undone

2007-08-07T12:48:00.000-07:00

This night tells me

The streaks of light in the sky

Assure us of glorious ascend

So cold so alone is this very place

Called My sanctuary

Or has my mind taken reality too far

In here my dreams surround everything

And on these clouds I`m sure

That all of my baggage is not my burden to carry anymore

So ordinary am I not a stranger to The past that

hangs over me, like halos on angels

a yearning buries its hope in the ground

To be free and to be whole again

with every shadow i can hear yout breathing

with each hint of glory I know your near me

if this is the new moon i`d rather burn in the sun

Insomia

2007-07-23T15:04:00.000-07:00

Insomia Insomia all because i miss you
Every monday night i don`t sleep its becoming so predictable

i`m praying for you still

GOD GIVE ME A BREAK!

2007-07-02T13:46:00.000-07:00

I normally don`t post anything personal here besides my own art work..
BUt i really need to rant now..

these past 6 months has been nothing but a bitch, yes a bitch despite having met many awesome people. I realise deep inside i am still the same ol kid still searching for love. I look for it in the wrong places, recently i have had my heart dragged through a blood smeared nail pool.. my business partner backstabbed me, my ex gf turned out to be a fucking liar, lost my bestfriend, my boss is thinking of firing me, lost $ 20 000, the girl of my dreams just is`nt interested in me. So please give one good reason why i sould leave mylife in the mercy of a knife. LOSERVILLE IS WHERE I LIVE MAN! GOD GIVE ME A BREAK!! HELP!!

25 years old this year, no ambition, no money, no luck, no love, no looks. I should really becom a monk, since no one really wants to be with me anyways. Yes lame, i am lame so fucking lame i should take part in the handicapped olympics, something is seriously wrong with me man. Maybe i was dropped on my head when i was given birth to, i seriously dun think i can make it anymore. Whatis hope? fabrication? i really wonder is this concept a crutch for the wounded and afflicted. Jesus if your real than save me, if you have any use of me of this useless piece of crap than i guess you know how to use me. If not just end my life, i`m a waste of space. a BIG FUCK UP.

2007-06-16T22:44:00.000-07:00

some new owrk i did in progress titled: She said Hello

2007-05-06T11:20:00.000-07:00

2006-10-29T06:12:00.000-08:00

Any one interested in commissioning or buying my work pls feel free to email me:

rommiester@gmail.com

2006-10-19T10:48:00.000-07:00

2006-10-17T09:27:00.000-07:00

2006-10-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

2006-10-11T08:59:00.000-07:00

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2006-10-09T10:22:00.000-07:00

new stuff

2006-10-09T10:02:00.000-07:00

yeap..

2006-10-06T12:28:00.000-07:00

todays special

2006-10-05T05:51:00.000-07:00

Bust the cap! in your....

2006-10-04T09:14:00.000-07:00

somemore

2006-10-04T09:01:00.000-07:00

Sketches for future paintings

2006-10-02T18:04:00.000-07:00

some more...

2006-09-29T05:57:00.000-07:00

Some drawings and a song

2006-09-28T09:09:00.000-07:00

Quit singing about stars

Could we for a moment quite singing stupid melodies about stars
Singing stupid qoutes on how this system sucks
whispering your interpretation for our wondering in circles
Ots so shady till no one will ever understand it
Same old boring excuses for expression
won`t you call a spade a spade?
Stranger what is your point?
What good does it do to breathe down our knecks
What help does it give to pledge your actions
what does it take to shut you up

the disclaimer that facades your truest label
Yet the secret things of shame wallows in you rchest
I rather not be labeled with religion, i rather just be myself
though so personal, but its never private
i rather just be myself
Quit singing about stars
PLease Just stop it!

DRAWINGS AGAIN

2006-09-25T18:01:00.000-07:00

we want what we don`t want we don`t want what we want

2006-09-23T20:39:00.000-07:00

We avoid the drama but the drama is what we end up with
Shun away from the voiceless cause
we are lost for words
sometimes reality is uglier than the scales that hide
just don`t give in
drag this fiasco on and on
this will arrive in the end with drama
We avoid the drama but the drama is what we end up with
we want what we don`t want
we don`t want what we want
Big Babies whinning about the mess we`ve made
Big babies tired of stale milk
what about us? what about it?
never question our actions
have it our way
we want what we don`t want
we don`t want what we want
We avoid the drama but the drama is what we end up with

You Just keep on doing it, don`t ya?

2006-09-21T23:58:00.000-07:00

Sweet talker your ruining it all
with your subliminal speech
Sweet talker taint the plot, i get it now
i get it now
Up to your mischief again, some times it comes
across so adorable
But the only way to really know
when i find myself staring at my reflection
to see if its me, if its all about me
i get it now i get it now
who shapes the continuation?
so we find our sight by hearing
A drawing factor, chewing on maggots you think its
candy to soothe your desire
Its not going to work out
If this is it
Its not going to workout
Sight by hearing?
Oh but i get it now, I get it now
I won`t sit by to watch you screw it all up

NEW DRAWINGS

2006-09-18T05:00:00.000-07:00

Some drawings i did while at work... haha mostly ...... well inspired by music i was listening to at that moment...

Once smitten ask Twice why

2006-09-14T09:38:00.000-07:00

Carve your tactless comments onto the back of your mind
i bet none of what you said makes any sense
i`d trade my profits for a glimpse of your weary hands holding your restrain
watch your tongue bend on its back
I should have known
I should have known
the page you tore from your story
so crucial, you tore the page from the story
so full of it, never thought i could take you seriously
we have fallen short of the facts that don`t make any sense
I should have known
I should have known

WHEN LOVE IS`NT LOVE AND WHEN TRUTH BLINDS US FROM TRUTH

2006-09-12T09:25:00.001-07:00

Her head rests on my chest
mine never reaches near hers
The marks, you can`t count on that show
but do not reveal the confusion of intention
In the mix of emotion
My feet plants itself miles away from you
Tell me how did A chasm so wide drove its ugly
judgement, in between in between
Maybe today promises will follow through
Anticipate an outcome of an enduring Hope
Yet the waiting is what we endure
I owe you an apology
Pardon my ears for stealing you words to foster a guilt
that hides my affection towards you
My affection for you grows
This just can`t be
Lets just say the reasons why, will remain buried in me
To shelter your frame, i told you lies to hide my secret
My Bad, oh how i wish you`d see it too

WHEN LOVE IS`NT LOVE AND WHEN TRUTH BLINDS US FROM TRUTH

2006-09-12T09:25:00.000-07:00

Her head rests on my chest
mine never reaches near hers
The marks, you can`t count on that show
but do not reveal the confusion of intention
In the mix of emotion
My feet plants itself miles away from you
Tell me how did A chasm so wide drove its ugly
judgement, in between in between
Maybe today promises will follow through
Anticipate an outcome of an enduring Hope
Yet the waiting is what we endure
I owe you an apology
Pardon my ears for stealing your words to foster a guilt
that hides my affection towards you
My affection for you grows
This just can`t be
Lets just say the reasons why, will remain buried in me
To shelter your frame, i told you lies to hide my secret
My Bad, oh how i wish you`d see it too

2006-09-12T09:02:00.000-07:00

TO LEAD OR NOT TO LEAD?

2006-09-07T10:19:00.000-07:00

I rather lead my own life... i dun have a choice... but to learn
to lead my inner man...
YOU CAN`T CHANGE THE WORLD, YOU CAN ONLY CHANGE YOURSELF

WORK IS GOOD I TALK TO CHICKS ALL DAY..

2006-09-05T07:55:00.000-07:00

What can i say..... i practically meet new chicks everyday at work.......
and the cool part is i get to talk to them....its part of the "JOB"

but having said that nothing perked my day up more than when on monday a friend dropped by just to give me a hug... made my week.. i noe this sounds potentially gay..
but really its not.. guess underneath this BEHEMOTH LIKE EXTERIOR lies...
someone...that.... ( you fill i the blanks )

Been reading the Kurt cobain autobiography..its been depressing...
but HECK! I`M GONNA FINSIH IT ANYWAY CUZ ITS SO DAMN INTERESTING!
wow... i totally related with his childhood and the divorce and separation of his parents...
i havent revisited those memories for a long time!
but now it does`nt hurt as much anymore.... but now i really and confused.. how can i use that experiance to help someone else... Kurt Cobain never..helped anyone else....
im not saying im made of stuff of legends... but im saying how can i capitalise on this experiance for the benfit of those around me and myself....?

this is where capitalism is`nt all that bad!

Jerome

How i feel on the 4th of sept 2006! Good morning providence

2006-09-04T09:24:00.000-07:00

GOOD MORNING PROVIDENCE - THE GLORIA RECORD

good morning, hospital
we've got a situation here
i'm in the belly of a whale
and haven't seen the sun for days
i'm cut and paste inside this tune
good morning, providence
the chorus is a wreck so mind your head and bless this mess
good morning, hospital
i need to get away from here
'cause i've been working for too long
and haven't seen the sun for days
i'm cut and paste inside this tune
good morning, providence
the chorus is a wreck so mind your head and bless this mess
'cause under here everything is over
under here everything is over
everything is frozen
everything is

2006-08-31T10:22:00.000-07:00

some work i did on my comp hahahaha i drew the robot in th eback ground the rest is photo shop

Some Art work to Kill Time

2006-08-29T17:48:00.000-07:00

Just some drawings i did a while back never got to show anyone.. so its really just for your eyes now.. also to remind myself that i really should aim for an art show soon....

Some work i did when i was bored... bored a while ago....

MUCHOS GRACIAS

2006-08-28T13:57:00.000-07:00

Thank you everyone that came to my place last night for dinner.
to celebrate my birthday and ord! i wish i had said a better speech...
it was really half baked... so i guess here it goes...

ORD LOH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha!!!

glad to see that for the past 3 years i have learned so much,
from close friends. I love you guys, i may be a pain now and then, really i would`nt have anyone else 2 share this day with besides you guys and thats only because i don`t have a girl friend yet.( JUST KIDDING!!)

Ohwell.... i must say.... MEE SIAM MAI HAM! MAI HAM!!
well sadly some of you could`nt make it, but its all good! we will still have many many more times to laugh, cry,fight, sing, play, pray... wat ever else.... we do i am grateful i have you guys around. :)

If only i knew how to better thank you guys....
i sat down with granny today.. and i was brought down to tears .... of how humbly my family started.. we really had nothing.... it was so bad man..... i remember eating left overs upon left overs...
my mom and dad were never around. i was constantly bullied in school, really quiet kid.... did`nt know how to do anything else but draw.....and draw........

well... today i have a diploma, a home, a new job that starts this friday, a band whom i rock out with, my lovely friends. I can only say God its yours if all this distracts me from you.... because nothing else matters but the Lord.... do not get me wrong i am thankful for everything i have, but i also realise these r not mine to keep. They r previledges NOT ENTILEMENTS.....

one thing is for sure i will never let you go Jesus...
My life is yours to the death...

Jerome

I AM WARRIOR MUCHACHO APACHE BOY

2006-08-28T02:47:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS NOT MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOO HOOO!!!
ITS NOT ITS NOT!!! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT I FEEL LIKE A MILLION BUCKS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SCREW THE RINE STONE COWBOY AND HIS APACHE CREW!!!!!!
WHAT A JOKE !! WHAT JOKE!!! ALL IS LOST!!!! YET IM FOUND!!!
ALL IS FORSAKEN!!! BUT IM RESTORED!!!!!!!

HOW ARE YOU MISS DAISY??? STILL POPING SUGAR???
IM YOUR HONEY!!! BUNNY!!!
COMFORT THE SORES!! COMFORT YOUR SAGGY FAT ARMS!!!
AS YOU WAVE GOODBYE!!!
I WAVE YOU A MIDDLE ROAD STRETCHED FROM MY FIST!!!!
PISS OFF!!!!!!
I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!!!

INSOMIA

2006-08-25T11:47:00.000-07:00

one of the ugliest words....
can`t sleep i just can`t sleep....
i think of you...
my tears tell me you dun think of me at all..
so why do i go on this way....
so hard..
fight this! fight with what i`v got!
but maybe i dun have to fight at all...
i will forget you.... i will...
move on....

ME IN 2003

2006-08-24T13:28:00.000-07:00

THIS ! was me in 2003! lol thats how FAT! I have become!

MY FRIEND MY FRIEND YOU ARE INDEED SPECIAL..

2006-08-24T11:37:00.000-07:00

I just wonder... when you have been friends for so long.....never TOO long i hope...
You begin to miss that person... yet it is just so cliche to say it to the person you miss, is it wrong?
have i allowed myself fallen into a situation, where i am bound towards pain again?

Yet i am willing to be hurt, even rejected, for all that we`ve been through, we`ve seen the Lord`s mercy.
how i pray for the Lord`s heart to beat in my chest for you. When i see you i am reminded of how truely i never deserved such gentleness, like the kind you show me so freely. without complain, without malice your smile never fails to pick me up. Yet things change, there is a time for everything.. so we have learnt from the good word. And in the stillness that i`ve found myself in, i think of you and i rejoice in secret.

3 weeks from now would mark where last left off, we were young. We did`nt know how else to handle what was in our hands. So we said goodbye....
A year later we find ourselves in forgiveness. I Love your courage.

And 2 years later from that point, your still here.
You have never always understood me, and you have never always listened, you have never always kept your word. Yet i find myself letting everything go, so that i can be near you. So i toast to the memories we`ve shared, never again will i find another friend like you. There is no comfort or answer for what i feel tonight, i only rejoice in secret. You are beautiful, and you will always be. I love you.

CALL ME MR ORD

2006-08-24T11:16:00.000-07:00

Well... Its been 2 days into the life of a civilian and i must say...
ITS FREAKIN BORING!!! Yet i appreciate the stillness in my life.

Its moments like these, when your mind drifts.. and i realise how quickly people
simply move on from day to day. Its really very scary, the pace we work at and move at
we hardly take the time to appreciate the simplest of things...
yet i find on occassions being the only one in the crowd appreciating the quietness shared
between a trusted friend and myself....
Yes i believe its in the quiet moments that we find ourselves connecting and simply enjoying
each others company..

surprisingly coming from a NOISE BOX like yours truely.. hard to imagine..
i find myself listening to old music again.. music i appreciated before my national service...
bands like "THE GLORIA RECORD", "THE VELVET TEEN", "HOPESFALL", "THIRD EYE BLIND", "STING", "BEN FOLDS FIVE", "DEFTONES"... the list goes on..... ( YES I LISTEN TO SAPPY MUSIC! )

Yes i am in a state of nostalgia. so if u see me teary eyed and stoning ( if u even care )... i guess im just grateful..
just grateful.. and no i don`t mean cheesy "grateful" by SE BAND... ( not being malicious )
SIMPLE... if things were simpler....

Playing drums again??

2006-08-15T02:58:00.000-07:00

Im leaving for church now.. going for Sonic edge band practice.
Its so wierd that im going to sit behond the drum kit again, reclaiming my throne?
lol well really pray hard i get use to it again. Its been 2 long since i even touched my drum sticks.
Ohwell.... Am going to try to get my tag board up real soon, once i figure out what in the world
i have to do to get it up. Im a real computer idiot ( i don`t know how to use computers ).
I will only know how i faired in a few hours time.....

Jerome

THE LUKEWARM HEART IS THE KILLER

2006-08-14T09:46:00.000-07:00

Revelation 3:14 and 20These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the ruler of God's creation. "Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.

If you read the rest of the verse.. it touches on the heart condition of believers.
The issue is not so much how our outward expressions convey our love for the Lord.
Its a heart issue.. you either be hot or cold FOR the lord.. but never Lukewarm.. never sit on the fence. Make a descision today.. Just who`s side are you on?

This has spoken to me and convicted me, i have decided not to think about it. But to act on it,
Love is truely a Verb.. u act on it. The same way God loves us so much that he will Never barge into the private areas of our lives, But he still does "Stand at the door and knock.."

It comes down to the cognitive versus the experiancial basis of our believes.
Is God merely a suggestion a concept or a coping strategy? or Is God so real that it is possible to have a deep relationship with him. If its a relationship, it needs to be worked on.

If its a suggestion or concept.. than we soon find ourselves in centre of turmoil and pain again.
This verse is Not dealing with the Non believer or pre believer perse. How ever it is dealing with the believer.

I confess i have not been walking right before the lord and luke wamrness has crept its ugly head in. I must find a way to break this, and that way is Jesus.

with Love
Jerome

HARLOW!!

2006-08-12T09:17:00.000-07:00

Guess no one will read this yet cuz no one knows about this hahaha anyways if u do
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